Update 6/28/08

well just a quick one to say UGHHHHHHH....I am so regular I mean you count 28 days and I am there! Well maybe it is the anxiety of starting our IVF journey that I am late or it is my body just playing a cruel joke with my mind...LOL. I am 5 days late today Saturday and of course I didn't want to go buy a stupid HPT but well I did. Of course i knew it would be BFN but hell in the past that always worked as soon as I POAS i would get AF a couple hours later! Well not this time....I took one at lunch yesterday and still nothing. So I just wait....when??? I am waiting for her to arrive so I can go on cd 3 for b/w and u/s. So come on!!!

If you read my blogs in the future see the terms below I abbreviate alot.

key:
IVF - Invitroferitization
HPT - Home Pregnancy Test
BFN- Big Fat Negative
POAS - Pee'd on a stick
AF - Aunt Flow (period)
CD - Cycle Day
B/w & U/s - bloodwork & Ultrasound

06/17/2008

Well I am not the best at writing but I have decided to open a blog site to educate people and keep people up to date on our journey of infertility. Its now 8 years and counting if you count the fact I have not been on bcp's (birth control pills) that long. In the beginning of our marriage from 2000-2003 we went thru IUI's/clomid/injectibles/surgeries/depression etc...all to have failed. So to make our dreams of becoming parents a reality we decided to adopt. Our daring daughter was adopted in 2004 from Guatemala. She is the world to us but because we want to have a second child and a sibling for Maia we decided back in June of 07 to try fertility treatments again. I mean why not try we are unexplainable infertility meaning after all testing, surgery etc...there is no reason for us not to conceive a baby. So we got a new RE (reproductive endo. doctor) he retested me for everything basically since had been so long. Then in September he wanted to do a Laproscopy and once again clear. So in October 07 we proceeded with injectibles and IUI and guess what I hear the words I've NEVER heard...You are pregnant but your levels are low so you are likely to miscarry. I retested with blood work a few days later and i did. BUT again in 8 years no other doctor did that for us so in light of the bad news it was good news WE CAN CONCEIVE! We tried again in January 08 and failed. Basically our only option was to now move onto IVF which is costly so I just did not want to chance losing so much money and end up with no baby! We then decided to wait and wait we did; we thought about adopting again to guarantee our new baby...but as we were starting the process for the second adoption I called the RE office to let them know I wanted to be a donor for eggs. My thought was another woman gave us the chance of being parents and I wanted to do the same...well I visited with the RE and to my surprised in April the started a shared risk program that offers 3 fresh IVF and 3 FET then if after those you don't deliver a baby you get refunded 70% of your money! I could not pass this up! So we going for it! IVF here we come...RE gives us 50-60% chance of getting pregnant each time due to our age, health, no problems etc...With IVF we will get more answers hopefully since they take the egg and sperm and conceive the embro in the lab...We should find out if I have poor egg quality or is it that the sperm just is not penetrating thru the egg, etc...I AM SO EXCITED.

Feel free to comment..this will be a journey to which we hope to have our 1st IVF in August! Keep us in your thoughts...I will post blogs to keep all updated just don't email or ask me consistently how things are going if I want you to know it will be posted here.